After a record-short 333 days, my tenure at Buildium is over.

Last winter’s ludicrous snowfall finally put the nail in the coffin of continuing to live in Boston. But it also became clear that moving out of Boston wasn’t compatible with my employer’s plan to centralize their personnel locally and stop supporting people working remotely. I had hoped to stay on while relocating, because it would obviate the need for any Pittsburgh job hunt, but given our opposing directions it was inevitable that Buildium and I would have to part ways when I left town.

Buildium logo

In the past, when I left a company (as opposed to being laid off or having the company move out from underneath me), I’ve always been fortunate to move on to something better. In 1995 I jumped from a failing medical software company to a rapidly-growing nascent internet consultancy, which was without question the best career move I’ve ever made. And in 2006 I left a tiny professional services contractor to return to large-scale internet consulting just as open-source and “Web 2.0” were taking off. It would be awesome if this departure leads to similar improvement, especially given the way front-end coding has transformed over the past couple years.

The unfortunate aspect of my departure is that I’ve been really happy at Buildium and would prefer to stay. While property management software isn’t the noblest purpose in the world, it was a huge improvement over my previous job spamming students and funneling leads to student loan companies. I greatly improved my technical skills, the hours and stress level were uncommonly humane, and the pay was good.

And the people were awesome. Buildium’s leadership team has its share of challenges, but it’s been very satisfying to once again work with and for people with a healthy dose of both intelligence and common sense—as might be expected from a company founded by and stocked with fellow Sapient alumni.

But more than that, what makes Buildium unique—both among my former employers as well as across the industry—is that its staff are enthusiastic and uncommonly personable and caring, without being contrived or dogmatic about it. From top to bottom, the positive attitude of their team members sets Buildium apart from other places I’ve worked.

That’s a big reason why I would have preferred to stay on as one of several remote workers on their engineering team. Sadly, the commitment to centralizing operations in Boston made that impossible. And after 25 years here, my life is taking me in a different direction.

Although that didn’t stop me from feeling a certain righteous amusement when HR asked the employees to vote on what Buildium could do become a better place to work. Someone added “Work remotely” to the list of ideas, and sixteen people put their checkmark-votes next to that item: more than twice as many as any other suggestion!

And if that input had been put into practice, I would still be working there, rather than going my own way and diving back into the job market in an unfamiliar town.

As part of this whole move thing, I’ve begun looking into UX job opportunities in Pittsburgh. Naturally, I’m gonna start by looking into things I know work here in Boston: tech meetups, events, and local branches of national groups.

Among the most successful branch groups here is something called Refresh Boston. Here’s how they describe themselves on their website:

About Refresh Boston

Naturally, I wanted to see if they had an equally active branch operating in my future home. Here’s the number one result when searching on “Refresh Pittsburgh”. The contrast is pretty damn telling, don’t you think?

About Refresh Pittsburgh

Two months ago, I wrote a blogpost about the puerile employment listings I came across during last year’s job hunt. A number of people were surprised that employers continue to look for coding “ninjas”, “jedis”, “wizards”, and so forth.

By way of response, I started logging the more effusive job titles that passed through my RSS feed.

I thought you might be interested in seeing the kinds of people the tech industry is looking for. Needless to say, there’s plenty of hyperbole here to be critical of.

Such as…

  • Agile Tester and Support Enthusiast - 100% Remote! at ORCAS, Inc. (Eugene, OR)
  • Android wonderchild at Appstrakt (Antwerpen, Belgie)
  • Astounding ColdFusion/Node.js developer at Clevertech (New York, NY)
  • Awesome Dev Ops Wanted -100% Remote at Roch Systems (Reston, VA)
  • Back-end Developer to rule the world with APP (iOS, Android & Webapp) at MIWI (Amsterdam, Netherlands)
  • Black Belt / Scrum Master - Global Advanced Analytics - Location Frankfurt at ING (Amsterdam, Netherlands)
  • Data-Obsessed Engineer at Periscope (San Francisco, CA)
  • Director of Apple Awesomeness (iOS Lead Developer) at ChartSpan Medical Technologies (Greenville, SC)
  • Expert iOS Engineer (Medium-Senior level) at the binary family & The Beautiful Weather Corporation (Berlin, Germany)
  • Extraordinary Angular / Hybrid Mobile Developer at Clevertech (New York, NY)
  • GUI Expert on a trading platform-Senior/Lead Technologist | Full Stack | Java | at Fortis Capital Management (New York, NY)
  • Incredible node.js Leader at Clevertech (New York, NY)
  • iOS ninja to work with the hotest tech startup in London at S(u)ave (London, UK)
  • Looking for Ninja SQL Server Engineer to revolutionize mobile payments at Merchant Warehouse (Boston, MA)
  • Looking for Top-Notch PHP / Yii Framework developers for Remote Work at Plexisoft Inc. (Boston, MA)
  • MSSQL Database Developer and Web Analytics Guru at Scholarly iQ (Helotes, TX)
  • PHP Web Developer (Middleweight) at BREAD (London, UK)
  • PHP / Symfony2 developing genius at Appstrakt (Antwerpen, Belgie)
  • Passionate Ruby Developer at Clevertech (New York, NY)
  • Python Hero Makes Families' Lives Better @ Well Funded Startup at Slide (London, UK)
  • SUPERSTAR .NET DEVELOPER - (C#, MVC, Agile) - Talented Team at viagogo Group (London, UK)
  • Seeking passionate UI developers at BLT+ (Los Angeles, CA)
  • Senior Front-End Guru - Angular expert needed. Work by the beach! at Mavice (Santa Monica, CA)
  • Talented Software Engineer at Amazon (Detroit, MI)
  • The Wizard of Ruby at White Inc. (Dubai, United Arab Emirates)
  • Unique Role Available for a Human Senior C# ASP.Net Software Engineer at Screenfeed (Saint Louis Park, MN)
  • WANTED: Android Developer to Rule the World at MIWI (Amsterdam, Netherlands)
  • WANTED: Back-end Developer to Rule the World (iOS, Android & Webapp) at MIWI (Amsterdam, Netherlands)
  • Windows 8 guru at Appstrakt (Antwerpen, Belgie)

Although it’s a completely arbitrary marker, this is the time of year when people look back and take stock, with the aspiration that things might be different from this point forward.

I am entertaining that same hope this year, because the past 18 months have been pretty brutal. There have been a number of really great things, but also a hell of a lot of adversity to overcome.

I’ve already described much of it in the pages of this journal, so I don’t need to get into the details. Instead, I just wanted to list them out in bullet points… To preserve the big picture, and to share this impression of all the challenges, failures, and victories I’ve faced.

With that as introduction, here’s a list of the major stressors and changes that have come about for me in the past 18 months. They’re color coded: green is good, red is bad, and yellow is something in-between.

  • Had a bike crash trying to avoid a car that ignored a stop sign. Ensuing physical recuperation, plus medical expenses and bike repair costs.
  • Surpassed $100,000 in lifetime fundraising for the PMC, earning a lifetime achievement award.
  • My job ended quietly after my employer being bought out. Although I did get to have another year-long sabbatical.
  • Grew my hair out to normal length after 10 years clean-shaven.
  • Turned 50 years old.
  • Spent that birthday on a tiny Caribbean island I’d long dreamed of visiting. Some stress from the tiny eight-person commuter flight from San Juan, and a bit of loneliness that I had no one to share it with.
  • Had a big misunderstanding with a friend that caused a lasting rift between me and my Kalyana Mitta spiritual friends group.
  • Very emotionally intense 10-day meditation retreat at IMS, including having someone barge into my room while I was sleeping the night after they announced that a thief had broken into people’s rooms.
  • Started a promising friendship and potential relationship only to have it explode in flames in my face.
  • Lost my mentor, benefactor, and hero Bobby Mac to cancer.
  • Stopped a ten-year hobby of tracking my spending at Where’s George.
  • Committed to trying to make a relationship work with my best friend Inna.
  • Survived a frigid 51st New England winter. Working on number 52 now.
  • Committed to moving south, out of New England, where I’ve lived my entire life.
  • Started an expensive new hobby in kyūdō, traditional Japanese archery martial art.
  • Celebrated ten years of meditation practice.
  • Put a lot of energy into a big project to reach out to others socially, with limited results.
  • Another bike crash resulting in a mild concussion, plus another round of medical expenses and bike repair costs.
  • The ER nurse botched an IV insertion so badly that a hematoma covered my entire arm, and I was unable to move it or ride for six weeks thereafter.
  • Participated in my final Pan-Mass Challenge ride.
  • Left my Kalyana Mitta spiritual friends support group with significantly mixed feelings.
  • Pretty much ended all involvement at my meditation center, including the longstanding Experienced Practitioners group, the annual Sandwich Retreat, and my volunteering to MC the regular Wednesday night dhamma talks.
  • Put my meditation practice on long-term hold.
  • Took my beloved cat for vaccinations which he had a severe reaction to. Just as he seemed to be recovering, the hospital called and I was forced to tell them to let him die.
  • I developed abdominal pain which took a long time and considerable expense to diagnose and treat, resulting in gall bladder removal: the first surgery of my life.
  • Began renovating my condo with a goal of putting it on the market, finally undertaking several repairs I’d put off for years.
  • While doing renovation, discovered that the living room drywall needed to be replaced, and there was a gaping 12-inch diameter hole from the bedroom to the outside that should have been bricked up and insulated.
  • Major financial issues as a result of unemployment, mortgage, medical bills, and home renovations.
  • Raided my 401k in order to fund renovations and medical bills.
  • The usual self-questioning during my job hunt.
  • Started a new job at Buildium, which will require me to learn quickly and prove myself again without any direct mentoring.
  • Discovered that gall bladder removal didn’t address my abdominal symptoms, so will begin 2015 back on the restrictive diet and undergoing further diagnostic work, while hoping it’s not something serious.

So as you can see, I’ve had a lot to deal with, including quite a bit of negative stuff, which is happily atypical for me. It’s definitely taxed my energy, morale, and coping resources.

While my health problem is front and center, and there are more big challenges to come in the next couple years, I’m hoping that things will start going a little more smoothly. Although I don’t believe that changing the calendar has any meaningful impact, it would be nice if things started getting back on track again.

After all, I’m not used to life being quite this difficult and exhausting.

Before I talk about my new gig, a brief word about the old one. I spent nearly three years working for a student loan marketing company called Edvisors. In 2013, a company from Las Vegas bought them out and phased out our Boston headquarters.

The title of this article is a bit of an inside joke. Edvisors had a lot of turnover, and people came to appreciate the euphemism “Transitions”, which was the usual subject line on the emails announcing another coworker’s departure.

Edvisors was pretty political and had (insert superlative adverb) outdated technology. On the other hand, I’m very proud of what my team accomplished. We built a good frontend team from scratch, set up vastly improved processes and standards, and dragged the company kicking and screaming toward 21th century technology and design practices.

Even after a six-month soft landing at Edvisors, I still took some additional time off. In the past year or two, the frontend technology field has advanced radically, most particularly in client-side Javascript frameworks like Angular and Ember. At the same time, I started hemorrhaging money thanks to repairs and medical bills from two big bike crashes, diagnosing and removing a faulty gall bladder, big vet bills after the sudden death of my pet cat, and renovations to my condo. Between rapidly changing technologies and a shrinking nest egg, it was time to get back to work in earnest.

Once I got serious about the job hunt, it took just a month. I only sent out four resumes, and got responses from three of them. I’m immensely thankful to have so many helpful local connections and a nicely loaded resume. It was also nice to get through the always-stressful tech interview; you never know what questions (or coding exercises) you’ll be asked, and despite having lots of experience, one always wonders how one’s tech chops will measure up against other candidates.

So two weeks ago I joined a company called Buildium, which was founded by a couple old coworkers from my Sapient days. Once upon a time, they bought and started renting a couple apartments, but discovered there was no good software to help them manage their properties and renters and contractors and taxes… So they built it themselves and started selling it, and they’ve built a thriving business around it.

Buildium logo

I’m a senior member of their growing frontend team, and I’m really excited that they are transitioning to the Angular framework, which is a tremendous opportunity for me. They also have a strong UX design practice, which is a real differentiator for a small product company.

In addition to the two founders, Buildium employs four other old friends from my Sapient days: one’s still a working designer, and the others each manage Buildium’s technology, design, and product management practices. And there’s at least one more old friend starting in January.

Even though it’s been about twelve years since we worked together, I was surprised by the things my old friends remembered about me. One of them recalled that I was the kind of person who absolutely didn’t want to climb to senior/leadership positions, and another fondly remembered the “Snackland” website I built (in ASP & ADO!) to help teams vote for what snacks they wanted to spend their collective money on.

Having kept in touch with some of those guys, I recognized the company name when a developer position at Buildium appeared in my RSS feed of job listings one day. I reached out to one of those buddies, and the rest was pretty straightforward.

This constituted the unlocking of one new achievement: the first time I’ve ever received a job offer without ever meeting anyone at the company face-to-face! Most of the vetting was done by phone, with one video chat for the tech test with a developer in California. In fact, I was the one who insisted on coming in to check out the office and meet a few people before accepting their offer! Very different experience.

As a company that prioritizes employee satisfaction, the benefits are refreshingly good: completely flexible PTO, the potential to work remotely, and of course I’m pretty happy to have decent health insurance again, after footing the bills for my recent medical issues. And they have not just one, but TWO foosball tables, which means I need to work on restoring the meisterly skills I had six years ago. Initial indications are positive, but considerable practice will be required! There’s also the opportunity to rewrite FRank, the foosball league ranking site I made so long ago, perhaps adding a mobile interface and speech recognition!

They’re located at the opposite end of Downtown Crossing from where I used to work at Optaros, so I know the area pretty well, and plan to revisit Lanta, the Thai place that formerly was Rock Sugar, my go-to lunch spot.

I’ll also enjoy a reprise of the walking commute I had down the statue-lined Comm Ave mall and through the Public Gardens and Boston Common. Or ride a whopping two stops on the Green Line… Definitely beats the hell out of the 40-minute commute down to Quincy that I had last year! Although I’ll miss having that nice, long bike commute, too. It’s not worth riding one mile to Buildium; it’d be as pointless as going out for a two-block jog!

On that note, there is a Buildium Strava cycling club, and their big company outing is to ride the 175-mile Cape Cod Getaway charity ride for MS each year. It goes from Boston to Provincetown, like the Outriders ride I do each year; while the MS ride takes a leisurely two days, Outriders does a shorter 130-mile route in just one day! Amusingly, it usually takes place one week before the MS Ride.

I also garnered an enviable second new achievement: coming in to work wearing jeans on my first day! Very cool! But my first day ended with something a lot less cool: when I went home and checked my postal mail, I received a note that my gall bladder surgery was scheduled for Thursday, only two days later! So at the end of my first workday, I had to ask on short notice for two days of PTO!

After taking Thursday and Friday for the operation, I returned to start my second week of work a week ago. I set up my development environment and finished my first code fix. Then Friday was the company holiday party…

I already posted to Facebook about the awkwardness of starting a new job right before the holiday party, which is an experience I’m always desperate to avoid (as related in this anecdote from my Sapient days). Fortunately, two weeks was sufficient to break the ice with some officemates—thank goodness for the non-threatening mixer value of foosball!—and so I survived our seasonal Mandatory Fun.

My third week began with the deeply exciting experience of PAYDAY!!! I also have transitioned into a new (semi-permanent) team, so that I can cover for another frontend dev who is moving away at the end of the week. That’ll provide some immediate challenges, but it’ll also be exciting to be able to really dig into the work.

So overall the new job is Really Good.

Here’s one final observation. Having always set money aside when I was working, I’ve had the flexibility to take some time between jobs to unwind and just enjoy life before jumping back into it. But this fall I looked back at my resume and was a little surprised when I added up the numbers; since 2002, when I left Sapient, I’ve taken almost seven of the past 13 years off!

And being honest, I have to say that it was a really good thing. I’ve enjoyed entire summers kayaking or cycling, and been free to travel or devote time to my meditation practice. Given how insanely stressful and frustrating and exhausting software development can be, I think those periods of relaxation have been a real lifesaver for me. I definitely think it’s nice to pull a year or two of one’s retirement forward, so that one can enjoy time off while one’s still (comparatively) young, strong, and healthy. And the break gives one time to decompress and reconnect to one’s enthusiasm for work (and money!) before going back to the daily grind.

Now my most recent little sabbatical is over, and it’s time to dive back into the melee. But at Buildium, I’m really excited by the company, the people, and the technology, so I’m planning on enjoying it quite a bit.

In honor of my recent job hunt, I thought I might relate my worst interviewing experience as a job candidate. It’s not that entertaining a story, but it was definitely painful to go through.

It was around 2005 when I applied for a job at Macromedia’s office out in Newton. As it happened, this was just before the company was swallowed by Adobe.

The job was really cool (for that time): lead designer for a new product that would revolutionize the web by giving developers the ability to programmatically create and script dynamic forms and interfaces. The web had begun to evolve beyond static pages, toward more dynamic behavior and interactivity, and the question was whether that would be based on dynamic HTML or something like Macromedia’s successful Flash animation suite.

Naturally, Macromedia wanted to push Flash, but its authoring interface had been designed specifically for the workflow of an animator; they needed to create a new tool that would allow engineers to write programs that could build forms and dynamic pages on the fly. And that’s where this new product—called Flex—would come in. And they were hiring for the lead designer on an ambitious second version after a promising but not very useful proof of concept.

So I showed up at the Macromedia office at about 8:40am. Due to my own conservatism, I was about 20 minutes early for the scheduled 9am interview. Unfortunately, the office was still dark and locked up; no one had arrived yet. No biggie, I’ll wait.

And wait.

And wait.

The first person to show up—a secretary—didn’t come in until 10am, an hour after my presumed interview. She spent some time trying to track down the manager I was supposed to see, and eventually told me that he was “running late”. How helpful! At least she let me into the office to wait.

And wait.

When he finally arrived around 11, he told me that he had a meeting to run to, and asked if I would mind interviewing with two programmers on the team. It was immediately clear that neither of the developers had any idea what the position was about, nor did they have any questions to ask. We managed to kill an hour, achieving absolutely nothing. With the manager still unable to meet with me, they sent me home with apologies.

Despite the fact that the hiring manager had scheduled my 9am interview time, after over four hours on site I went home, having gotten less than 30 seconds of his time.

Needless to say, that made an indelible impression on me! Definitely not the best way to show a candidate that they’d be a valued member of the team.

With the perspective that comes from thirty years in tech, I’ve gained quite an appreciation for the basic absurdity of developing software.

A quick look in the rear-view tells a revealing story.

Of the volumes of software I’ve written, perhaps a quarter of it was never even used. And nearly all of the code that did make it into production was gone and deleted within five years of its creation. Heck, half of the companies I worked for disappeared within eight years! And nearly every programming environment I ever learned was obsolete within ten.

While everyone talks about how rapidly technology evolves, it’s rare that anyone thinks through the implications. The software that I was quite well paid to craft has been astonishingly ephemeral, and the development tools that I’ve used have had a useful lifetime somewhat shorter than my last pair of socks.

Needless to say, this isn’t just my problem; everyone in our industry faces the same underlying challenge. Nothing lasts forever, but in tech, everything we learn, use, or create should come with a “use-by” date of fewer than 60 months.

When you were young, you probably got the impression that your career would be a linear journey from Point A (your first job) to Point B (a comfortable retirement).

In the tech field, it’s more like trying to steer a sailboat at sea. You can point yourself toward a destination, but the water’s hidden currents and tides will pull you in different directions. The wind, waves, and other people’s passage will also push you off course. Never mind that every employer and project asks you to use their own boat with completely different rigging! And sometimes, either by choice or necessity, your destination changes mid-stream. About the time you reach the middle your career, you realize that your industry and career trajectory are far more fluid than you foresaw when you first set out.

While all this change and dynamism makes it hard to make progress in any one direction for long, if you develop the insight and skills to respond to these changes wisely, you can still get to a happy destination, even if it might look nothing like what you imagined when you got your first offer letter.

What follows are a list of observations I’ve made over the course of my shifting career: some often-overlooked implications of trying to navigate my way through such a turbulent industry. I hope they are of value to you on your own journey.

First, let’s look at the implications the ephemeral nature of software has on companies as a whole.

As soon as a development team delivers a software system, companies and product managers need to immediately start planning for its replacement. These days, you have two options: either factor a perpetual enhancement and revision process into your product strategy, or plan to simply throw away and reinvent your system at great cost a little further down the road. The traditional concept of implementing a system once and then scaling back for a lengthy “maintenance phase” died about the same time as pay phones and busy signals. It’s a nice old-fashioned idea that will lead you directly toward your Chapter 7 filing.

Whether you are a product manager or a development lead, you must accept and somehow communicate to your development team that time to market is infinitely more important than the elegance or academic correctness of their code. Bug-free code does not exist, and companies are much more rigorous about following the old 80/20 rule. If you’re truly following the Agile model (rather than pretending, as so many companies do), your top priority is to ship the beta: get an initial offering with a minimal feature set out into the market, and then react rapidly to customer feedback. These days, software that is “good enough” is almost always good enough.

When I first became an engineer, my older brother offered me one of the most valuable insights of my entire career: never hire technical staff for the knowledge they already have; instead, evaluate candidates primarily on their ability to learn new skills quickly and effectively. Five years down the road, the knowledge they walked in the door with will have no value; their usefulness as employees will be determined by how easily and quickly they can become productive with new languages and tools. Furthermore, the optimal way to retain the best technical talent is to support their desire to keep up with current and emerging technologies.

Now let’s talk about a few things that apply both to individuals as well as companies.

Whether you’re an individual managing your to-do list or a product manager specifying features and enhancements, you’re always going to have more tasks than time and resources to complete them. Therefore, always work on the highest value item. Constantly ask yourself whether you and your team are working on the most strategically valuable task. Always attach yourself to the tasks that truly have the most impact, and don’t waste your time on anything else.

Risk is uncomfortable. Risk is a threat to one’s company and one’s career. And yet risk is an inherent part of every single thing we do. While moving cautiously forward might seem like the most comfortable and risk-free approach, it really only defers that pain, because there is a huge hidden risk associated with not moving forward assertively enough. Both corporations and individuals must learn how to embrace risk, tolerate its associated discomfort, and recover from failures.

Software engineers and managers often have a grand dream of software reuse: the idea that if you’re building a program to handle Task A, you should invest some extra time into making it generic enough to handle anticipated future Tasks B and C. In the real world, B and C might never be needed, and their requirements are likely to change between now and then anyways. While it goes against our sensibilities, it is often quicker and easier to just duplicate and customize old code to handle new tasks. If the additional cost of maintaining multiple versions becomes sufficient, only then should you invest the resources to refactor it into a single generalized solution. That might sound like blasphemy, but in thirty years I’ve rarely seen a compelling example where software reuse saved money in the long run.

Finally, let’s talk about how we as individual employees should respond to the fact that our work has such a surprisingly short lifetime.

On a purely tactical level, as soon as you finish a project, save some screenshots and code samples for your portfolio. Six months later, those sites you built will have changed significantly, if they survive at all.

While everyone wants to be the best at what they do, building deep expertise in any tool or language no longer makes sense, because most languages are supplanted in a few short years. Rather than becoming an expert at one thing, a better strategy is to become the long-derided jack of all trades: someone who has a wide breadth of knowledge, an understanding of the general principles that apply to all environments, and the ability to adapt to changing business needs and a changing job market. Cultivate your passion for perpetually learning new tools, and your ability to be comfortable doing so under stress and time pressure.

In terms of getting your resume noticed, what you have done is not always as significant as who you worked for. Sites and projects are ephemeral, but major companies last longer and will catch the reader’s eye. Working with companies that are household names will—for the rest of your life—help you get that first phone screen.

My advice to all individuals is to focus on saving cash when you’re working, so that you can comfortably weather the inevitable downturns in the business cycle. Every time I’ve been laid off, I’ve been able to take a year or two off to decompress, have some fun, wait for the next upturn in hiring, and then be selective in my hunt for a new position. Layoffs and buy-outs weren’t personal emergencies because I had the cash on hand to weather any situation that arose. But if you take time off, devote some time to keeping your skills up to date and learning marketable new technologies.

Unlike the coding I’ve done, the one element of my career that has proven surprisingly durable over the long-term has been the relationships I’ve built with my coworkers. Despite everyone moving from project to project and job to job and often city to city, people remember you forever, and a robust contact list is immensely helpful in finding great places to work (and knowing which ones to avoid). It might sound crazy, but this has been one of the most important elements of my career success: put just as much effort into developing good relationships with your coworkers as you put into the software you write. Software doesn’t last, but people do.

Finally, one closing bit of advice about the long-term. If you want to be happy when you look back on your career, you must work for companies and projects that improve people’s lives, rather than just making a buck. Being a successful spammer or marketer might pay the bills, but money isn’t fulfillment. No matter how elegant, satisfaction will not come from the short-lived systems you build; real, lasting fulfillment comes from the impact your work had on real people’s lives. Life is too short to waste your time working on shit that doesn’t have any meaningful value, so make sure you’re contributing to a business you can really believe in.

And, of course, don’t be surprised or dismayed when the systems you worked so hard to build disappear overnight. It’s one of the facts of life as a software developer…

Every time I venture into the job market, I’m shocked and more than a little insulted by the job titles on offer.

Let’s be clear. I am a professional software engineer focusing on user interface design and development.

I am not a Ninja or a Jedi. Nor am I a Rockstar or a Guru or a Wizard. I am neither an Animal, a Unicorn, nor a Unicorn Tamer.

And yet, those are words I’ve seen employers choose when posting job openings in my field.

“Sure”, you say, “but those are just metaphors. What they really want are the best coders they can get.”

By way of reply, I ask you to consider the primary attribute of a person who would respond to such an ad. While confidence is usually considered a positive trait, someone who thinks of themselves as a ninjajedirockstarguruwizard clearly lacks the perspective and balance that comes with an equal portion of humility. Whatever the term, employers who use such superlatives are communicating that the primary trait they are looking for is arrogance.

“They’re just looking for energetic, motivated, go-getter types,” you counter. “And is arrogance really a bad trait for a coder?”

Absolutely!

First, let’s dispel the myth that arrogance (or even confidence) is correlated with competence; it isn’t. That’s a simple association fallacy. While confidence can be the outcome of competence, confidence can just as easily be a symptom of delusions of grandeur. And I know plenty of workers who, despite their obvious competence, struggle with their self-confidence.

With arrogance comes a disdain for others which easily hardens to contempt. With arrogance comes technical hubris and the belief that anything done by other employees (and certainly other companies) is inherently flawed and inferior. If you’ve been around the software industry for any time at all, you will have seen countless examples of NIH Syndrome (Not Invented Here). Arrogance is the most pervasive threat to any business process that is based on teamwork, knowledge sharing, and mutual respect.

When I see a developer exhibit arrogant behavior, it’s usually because they lack the perspective that comes from real-world experience; they haven’t been in the industry long enough to be confronted with their own mistakes and realize their fallibility, nor to appreciate the ingenuity and expertise of other practitioners. If I’m really looking for the best coder I can find, I’m going to hire someone who has made their share of mistakes, acknowledged them, and been willing to learn from them and improve their skills by asking questions of others.

As you might imagine, I don’t consider myself a ninjajedirockstarguruwizard. Having successfully derived my livelihood from software engineering for the past thirty years, I have a pretty accurate understanding of my strengths, weaknesses, and the value I can add in any given situation. I do not hold the arrogant self-opinion these employers are looking for, nor do I want to work with colleagues who do; so as soon as I see such superlatives in a job listing, I simply delete it, unread, and move on.

There are additional reasons why I immediately reject such listings. By putting so much emphasis on the search for ninjajedirockstarguruwizards, employers are revealing some ugly things about their internal culture.

First, the company is exhibiting as much arrogance as the people they hope to hire. They believe that the company will (of course!) be compellingly attractive to the best coders in the industry. They think the best and brightest will be satisfied with the corporate culture, working environment, compensation, and growth opportunities that they provide. Ironically, once you look behind the curtain, you’ll find such companies rarely live up to their inflated self-opinion.

Second, the company devalues women. Immature titles like Ninja, Jedi, Rockstar, Wizard, and Guru generally don’t appeal very much to educated, professional women, who have struggled to be taken seriously even within their field. The few women who do interview probably won’t manifest the kind of arrogance that the company associates with “quality”. One further wonders what Asian expatriates must think of the casual use of culturally-appropriated terms like “ninjas” and “gurus”.

It’s unassailably clear that all those super-heroic job titles are designed to appeal specifically to adolescent boys. By emphasizing those terms in job listings, a company is telling me that their managers generally think of their development teams as a bunch of immature adolescents, and that I can expect to be treated in a correspondingly condescending fashion.

Sure, perhaps I’m being a bit humorless, but that’s just insulting, and not an experience I want to subject myself to. So I don’t.

Finally, I just want to confirm that the “Overly Zealous” and “Cookie Manipulator” in the title of this post did indeed appear as titles in job listings I’ve recently seen, along with “Enthusiastic”, “Audacious”, “Visionary Game-Changer”, “Badass” and “Programmer Extraordinaire”.

And one job specially asked for an engineer “with more cowbell!” (their exclamation point). Plus, believe it or not, one company sought a “Ruby Eating Python-o-saurus Rex”. What! The! Fuck! Yeah, that really shows that you will take me, my career, and the contribution I make to your company seriously.

And final (dis-) honorable mention goes to the listing for a “Principle Systems Engineer” (sic). I’m absolutely agog imagining what duties that might involve…

Update: My followup post contains a list of the more effusive job titles I saw during the two months subsequent to this article.

There really needs to be a corollary to Newton’s Second Law of Thermodynamics, stating that website maintenance is a constant (and un-winnable) battle against the Stupid introduced by other people.

Usually this involves a lot of quiet fuming while cleaning up the garbage left behind by the incompetent agents of entropy. But sometimes the Stupid is just so ludicrously headdeskingly perfect that there’s nothing you can do but laugh until you gag on your own puke. All the while, marveling at the “mysteries of the universe”.

For example, consider the following. While working on something, I once came across the following block of code on a production website:

$rss_feeds = "";
echo $rss_feeds;

Now, even if you’re code-illiterate, you can probably figure out what this does. It sets a variable to nothing and then prints… nothing.

Why? No reason. The only thing I can figure is that someone hired a contractor and paid them based on the sheer number of lines of code they produced.

Now, before I lose all the non-coders in the audience, here are a couple examples where people chose to demonstrate their mastery of their native language. For example, take this headline that appeared in a second-level heading on one page:

Private vs. Gevernment

Or this major announcement:

Without further adieu [...]

Or this favorite job listing of mine:

[...] is currently seeking a Senior FrontEnd Web Developer with 710 years of professional experience

Working our way into the code doesn’t have to be painful, though. How about this one: Need to name a file? Why not name it after your own awesome self?

$fileExt = 'markrules';

Another one that is easy for non-coders is this one:

<div id="left_content" class="right">

Yup. In the Stupid Universe, left is right and right is left.

Now how much would you pay? But wait: there’s more!

<?php //    include('ad_med_rectangle.inc.php'); ?>
<?php include('ad_med_rectangle.inc.php'); ?>

In PHP, two slashes are used to comment something out. So here we have a line of code carefully commented out. And then the exact same line, not commented out. Um… huh?

Speaking of comments, try figuring out what this one does:

$form->addElement('hidden', 'xzdf', 'A3104', array('id' => 'xzdf'));

Using names or key values with self-evident meanings is really overrated. The Law of Stupid instructs us to use completely nonsensical names, and make sure you don’t leave any comments in the code that might explain to the people maintaining your code what those random numbers and strings of characters actually mean!

And then there’s this mystery of the universe, a perennial favorite:

$term = ereg_replace("hero", "elongated sandwich", $term);

I can’t tell you why this site has such a strong aversion to heroes, but it’s clear that any time we find the word “hero”, we replace it with our preferred term “elongated sandwich”. No reason; we just do. No hero worship allowed here!

Here’s a fun one!

.blue_button {
    background: none repeat scroll 0 0 #ED8D1E;
}

Blue_button, huh? You might be forgiven if you thought that might actually show a button that was blue. But that background color of #ED8D1E? That’s dark orange. OF COURSE!

For some reason, “switch” statements seem beyond the grasp of many well-compensated “engineering professionals”. I’m not sure why it’s so difficult to do different things depending on whether a variable has a value of 1 or 2 or 3, etc. Is that so hard? Apparently it is. Here’s a nice example:

case 1:
     $url = 'http://www.awebsite.com/';
     break;
case 1:
     $url = 'http://www.awebsite.com/';
     break;
case 1:
     $url = 'http://www.awebsite.com/';
     break;
case 1:
     $url = 'http://www.awebsite.com/';
     break;
case 1:
     $url = 'http://www.awebsite.com/';
     break;

That’s a double dose of Stupid! Here, all the cases do exactly the same thing! But that’s okay, because they all test against the same value, too!

In plain English, it translates thus: if it’s a 1 you do this; but if it’s a 1 you still do this; or if it’s actually a 1 you would also do this; and if 1 you do the same thing too; and so on. That’s seventeen lines of code to do what requires only one. See what I mean about someone being paid per line of code?

Of course, that only works if you want to do something. Truly masterful Stupid code does nothing, like this switch statement:

switch($page[subnav]) {
}

Huh. Only outside of the Stupid Universe is it customary to write code to actually *do something*.

Of course, junior developers often aren’t wise enough yet to disguise the fact that they’re doing nothing. Consider this:

 

Yes, that’s nothing. That’s the whole contents of a file I found called small.css. Small, indeed! Perhaps they thought they weren’t leaving any evidence of their stupidity behind.

Here’s some additional CSS-flavored fun:

<div style="clear: left;"> </div>
<div style="clear: right;"> </div>

More from the Planet of the Confused: why not just do “clear:both”? Oh yeah, it’s because YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU’RE DOING!!!

ttable tr td.odd {
     border-left: 0;
     border-right: 1px solid #fff;
}

Did the W3C create a new HTML tag (ttable) and I missed the news?

p.margin-left {margin-left: 15px; padding-right: 15px;}

So let me get this right: a paragraph called “margin-left” actually has equal margin on both sides? But on the left it’s a margin, and on the right it’s padding? That makes perfect sense, especially if you don’t understand basic HTML page layout!

Here’s an exemplary 12 lines of masterful coding:

if (isset($page_close)) {
$page_close .= <<<EOD
</body>
</html>
EOD;
} else {
$page_close = <<<EOD2
</body>
</html>
EOD2;
}
echo $page_close;

That’s just another example of how these guys clearly were getting paid per line of code. No matter what $page_close is set to, what those 12 lines of code really do is this:

</body>
</html>

No need for complex logic or any dynamic behavior. Good thing they inserted an extraneous IF/ELSE block, two “here quotes”, and echoing a variable, because how else would one know they were such masters of PHP syntax?

if (test_it_counter == 0) {
   computeForm(entry.form);
}
computeForm(entry.form);
test_it_counter++;

So the first time through this program, computeForm() get run twice in a row, just for kicks. I’m sure that works just great! I wonder why they didn’t run it twice every time?

<div id="nav" onmouseover="Tip('#nav { <br /> <var>float:</var> left; <br /> <var>width:</var> 788px; <br /> <var>height:</var> 36px; <br /> <var>margin:</var> 0; <br /> <var>padding:</var> 0; <br /> <var>background:</var> #fff url(images/navbg3.gif) no-repeat; <br /> <var>text-align:</var> center; <br /> } <br /><br /><cite>Note the hover action. </cite>')">

I have absolutely no idea what the coder was thinking here. If you hover over a nav, it displays a tooltip with a bunch of CSS code (which actually doesn’t get used and doesn’t appear anywhere in the page) and the message “note the hover action”. Glad that has been running out on the production web site for four or five years

My final example is a solve-it-yourself problem. Are you ready for a developer challenge? How long does it take you to spot the Stupid in this statement?

<?php if ($isForm = false) {

This one’s an all-time classic and a personal favorite. When comparing a variable to a literal, professional software engineers always put the literal first. Do you know why? Well, the above is a perfect illustration why. The reason why will be left as an exercise for the reader.

Herakleitos of Ephesus might have been a bright feller, but when he asserted that “Change alone is unchanging,” he was dead wrong.

Most Westerners are at least familiar with the idea that change is inevitable. We do go through our lives with the idea that every so often something about our world is going to change. Although we only tend to remember that fact when it smacks us up side the face.

Us Buddhistical types also take pride in our ability to anticipate and accept manifestations of Anicca (impermanence), which our list-loving patron categorized as one of the three characteristics of existence.

“All conditioned things are impermanent. Their nature is to arise and pass away. To be in harmony with this truth brings true happiness.”

However, the very language we use to remind ourselves about change masks an incredibly important point. When we say that “change is constant”, “change is unchanging”, or “change is permanent”, we obscure this basic and incredibly important fact: change is often lumpy as hell!

For the past couple years, my life has had only minor changes, most of which were easily prepared for. Let’s call that “normal change”. In contrast, 2013 has been a year where many long-lasting things I thought I could count on simply vanished. Not just one or two times, but in a comically long string of unexpected jolts.

What do I mean? Lemme walk you through a couple examples.

At work, we were abruptly informed that our 15 year-old company had been sold and the founder was outta here. In the next eight weeks, several of my coworkers departed, including half of my team.

Some time later, it was announced that the whole company was being moved to Las Vegas, and that those who chose not to relocate—including myself—would be out of work when the Boston office eventually closed. Ohai, job market!

Meanwhile, at my meditation center, two of the three founding teachers (the two who were married) are getting divorced. While that doesn’t impact me directly, at the same time the woman who had been the center’s executive director for 15 years is resigning, as is the guy who for many years has run the office and website.

The private “spiritual friends” meditation group I’ve been a part of is undergoing similar trauma. Three of our eleven members recently left the group to move across country, including our two primary founding leaders, who also provided our meeting space. A fourth member moved, but only across town and thankfully will be staying with us. And getting married.

Meanwhile, another member of the group has been unable to attend our meetings after having her first child, and I fear the same will happen with two other members who are also expectant parents.

So now we’re struggling with who will lead the group, where we meet, what constitutes a minimum acceptable level of attendance, and how we decide on and integrate a potentially significant number of new members.

Beyond my own circle, Boston’s been having its own upheavals. The local alternative newspaper, the Phoenix, abruptly stopped publication after a 40-year run. My neighborhood pizza joint—Newbury Pizza—closed after 34 years (plus a brief but ill-conceived stint as “Bostone Pizza”). JP Licks closed their 20 year-old Newbury Street ice cream shop. And the iconic Crossroads Irish pub has been shuttered, too, after lasting 35 years. All these places were the sites of important memories for me.

Then just this week, the organization that runs Boston’s First Night—the nation’s original First Night, founded in 1975—threw in the towel, as well.

And, of course, the topper for my city was the shocking bombing of the Boston Marathon.

These major changes don’t seem to be limited to the Commonwealth, either. Two good friends recently lost their jobs, including my big “angel sponsor” for my annual Pan-Mass Challenge charity ride. And one of my favorite places in Pittsburgh—Klavon’s, an original 1920s ice cream parlor—also closed.

The final straw was when I came home and received notice that the cat-sitting service that I regularly use has closed after seven years in business. Even my cat-sitters!

So yeah. 2013 is the year of excessive change. For me, it’s been more like carnage than change, actually. It’s like what Berenger must have felt like after seeing everyone else turn into rhinoceroses in Eugene Ionesco’s play.

All this, and we’re not even halfway through the year yet!

So don’t ever let them tell you that change is constant; it sure isn’t! Change is lumpy as hell. Expect the lumps!

PS! I completely forgot to mention the failure and/or replacement of my water heater, faucet, and disposall. Big lumps of impermanence, people!

I find myself in the mood to record a brief rundown of the major events of 2011.

In terms of my Buddhist practice, a few nice things happened. I completed a year of dedicated compassion practice, I became a paying member of CIMC for the first time, I began volunteering to read announcements at Wednesday evening dhamma talks, I continued attending CIMC’s Long-Term Yogis practice group, did another sandwich retreat, and attended our kalyana mitta group’s first weekend retreat. My daily practice thrived, partially due to finding time to sit during my lunch hour at work, and partially thanks to the mild competition fostered by the Insight Timer Android app, which allows one to earn badges and see how often one’s Facebook friends are sitting. Overall, I am comfortable with my meditation practice and happy with the results.

As alluded to, I also went back to work after a 2-year hiatus. Like any job, the new gig has its ebb and flow of both rewards and annoyances, but the influx of cash is certainly welcome. And despite having to overcome frequent outbreaks of stupid amongst my coworkers, I am getting to do the frontend design and development work that I enjoy. Unfortunately, it’s the longest commute I’ve had in a long time, but during the summer that gives me the opportunity to get some weekday bike rides in.

On the cycling front, the miles I gained by commuting didn’t quite offset the fact that working for a living meant I couldn’t spend summer days riding, so this year my mileage dropped from 5,000 to 3,000. But the income gave me the opportunity to do a long-needed complete overhaul of my bike and buy a new mapping GPS cyclo-computer. And I still did all my major events, racking up seven centuries, only one less than I rode in 2010. Notable rides included a rainy Jay Peak in Vermont with my buddy Jay, and a rainy three-state century with Paul and Noah. And I even had a training question published in the online magazine RoadBikeRider.

This year’s Pan-Mass Challenge was very memorable, as well. I began the season by attending my first PMC Heavy Hitter banquet and also the dedication of the PMC Plaza that comprises the entrance to Dana-Farber’s brand-new Yawkey Center for Cancer Care. I shared the ride itself with Jay, who enjoyed his first PMC. And despite riding on a loaner wheel because I discovered cracks in mine at the last minute, I still did my fastest Saturday ride ever. After the ride, I was delighted to find that a photo of me leading a paceline occupied the PMC Home Page for more than three months, and then was used again in a thank-you advertisement that Dana-Farber placed in 105 local newspapers throughout Massachusetts. Being the PMC’s poster boy and attending the dedication of the PMC Plaza both made me immensely proud of the years of work I’ve dedicated to the PMC and the Dana-Farber Cancer Institute.

Despite all that, I have to say that I was frustrated by this year’s cycling season. This was the first time that I had clearly lost ground against my riding buddies, who admittedly are 20 years younger than I am. I don’t know whether that fall-off was because my competitive spirit has lessened, because work prevented me from training more, because of the natural fall-off due to aging, or whether there might be something more serious going on. All I know is that some of my rides (especially the Climb to the Clouds and the Flattest Century) were really painful, unpleasant slogs this year.

In the same vein, this was the first year where I felt that my health had declined. I found myself fighting frequent intense headaches that often included nausea and vomiting, especially when I traveled (which turned the Flattest Century and Jay’s Labor Day ride around Mt. Wachusett into terrible experiences). I also noticed that I sometimes experience cardiac issues when riding flat-out, where I feel a sharp, intense pain in my chest and my heart rate drops by about 15 bpm for 30 to 60 seconds. These have, of course, been added to the list of things that I need to bring to my PCP, but they’re also the first indications that my body is starting to decline. Which brings me right back around to my spiritual practice!

In other noteworthy events, I observed my tenth anniversary of buying my condo, and remain extremely pleased with that. I got to see the Cars perform live, which was truly a once-in-a-lifetime event. I got around to making ice cream flavored with Pixy Stix candy with SweeTarts bits mixed in, which was fun but not quite the confectionery orgasm that I was hoping for. And I decided to punt on my planned trip to California for the second year in a row; the good news being that I am more committed than ever to making it happen in 2012.

Speaking of which, I’m not making too many plans for 2012, but there are already some themes emerging. I’m going to spend a week on the Riviera Maya (outside Cancun) with Inna. I’m finally doing my first residential meditation retreat at IMS (5 days). I’m once again going to try to make California happen in September. Of course I’ll be doing my 12th Pan-Mass Challenge and probably Outriders, but I also hope to do some new cycling events, such as the Mt. Washington Century, the Eastern Trail Maine Lighthouse Ride, and/or the Buzzards Bay Watershed Ride.

So if things work out, 2012 will be an interesting year, too. With just nine hours until it begins, here’s hoping!

O-taaay… first week back in the working world. Impressions?

After taking two years off, Monday I started working for www.edvisors.com, a small company that provides information and tools to help students navigate the admissions, financial aid, and loans tangle surrounding higher ed. So far it seems like a good group of people, and the company is growing after surviving some challenges resulting from 2008’s big credit crisis.

As a marketing/product company, it’s quite a change from the consulting lifestyle, but I think it’ll be a positive. Since much of their business moves in step with the academic calendar, hours and stress levels should be more predictable. And there’s essentially no travel, which is both good and bad, as you might imagine.

Although they have some properties that are oriented toward grad students, the majority of their user base are high schoolers and undergrads, so their user demographic has huge implications for site design. Although there’s not much happening in the mobile space yet, it’s definitely being talked about, which is really exciting to me both as a designer and developer.

My title is UI Team Lead, which means I have some degree of strategic input, which fits with my level of experience, but I’m still expected to do plenty of the hands-on coding work that I love. There’s some people management, but it’s really a team environment, and it’s too small to get all crazy about hierarchy.

At around two dozen people, the company sometimes feels similar to my previous tenure at Business Innovation. But unlike BI there’s a frontend practice whose design methodology and process I can help build.

As a minor sideline, the company funds a separate charitable education foundation that was founded by the owner and his father, who was a prominent educator and administrator. It funds local and national educational opportunities, especially for disadvantaged youth.

Technically, they’re a PHP shop and are mostly using the Kohana framework. It’s also a Mac shop, which is going to be a change for me, tho not a huge one. The transition is made easier by the fact that they gave me a MacBook Pro i7, which has two 2.66 GHz cores and 8GB of memory; in other words, the machine screams! It’s delivering 3 times the work as the Dell Latitude that Optaros gave me, and nearly 10x what I can get from my personal Lenovo Z60m. And that’s after I throttled it back to run at only 80 percent capacity!

The office is right in the middle of Quincy Center, so it’s a bearable 40-minute T ride (Green to Red) and reasonably bikeable. It’s 12 miles each way, which is pretty equivalent to my old commute to BI in Woburn. When I ride, I’ll mostly follow the Outriders route, which includes a short section of the Neponset River Trail, which is cool. On the other hand, it also includes Morrissey Boulevard and Granite Ave, which are both nightmarish major arteries, which may drive me to take a more inland route thru JP. It should provide some good base miles this spring, but there are no hills, and the urban streetscape won’t permit real interval training.

So how do I like it after Week One? So far, so good. I think it has a lot of promise, and I’ve yet to uncover any obvious sources of trouble. Of course, I’m sure my attitude will be more effusively positive at the end of the month, when that first infusion of cash hits my balance sheet!

Just a quick note to observe the 25th anniversary of both the Space Shuttle Challenger disaster and my professional career.

The Challenger disaster is one of the few news events where I recall exactly where I was. At twenty minutes before noon on January 28 1986, I was at work.

Although I hadn’t finished my undergrad at UMaine, I had just begun working as a software engineer for the university’s parking, police, and fire departments, which were all housed in one old farmhouse on the edge of campus.

My Televideo 925 mainframe terminal was located just outside the police chief’s office, and when the news broke about the shuttle’s disintegration one minute into its flight, the chief called everyone into his office to watch the event on the television that he usually used for videotapes or presentations.

Three months earlier, in October of 1985, I had been fired from a job slinging sandwiches at 7-Eleven because I had actually read the manual on how to operate the cash registers. My buddy Mike Dow was doing database work for the parking department and brought me in to assist, since he and I had already done some volunteer work together on CSNEWS, one of the internet’s earliest information services. But the Public Safety gig was my very first paid programming job.

For that reason, the Challenger disaster is inextricably linked with the beginning of my professional programming career. A career which has now officially spanned twenty-five years.

It’s been quite a ride, but I won’t indulge in reminiscing about all the good and bad times along the way. I’ll simply say that I’ve learned a lot, developed valuable skills, had a lot of satisfying successes, made so many great friends, and had a ton of fun. It’s enough to make an unemployed guy want to go back to work!

But today isn’t about all those things. It’s really more about just taking a minute to say: Wow, twenty-five years!

[livejournal.com profile] unicornpearlz asked: How the heck did you get so good at marketing?

I’d say there are probably three factors.

The first is just simple observation. Since no one can escape being marketed to, it makes sense for an engaged member of modern society to learn how mass media manipulate individuals and groups. This requires examining those media with a critical eye, giving thought to what the media are doing and how they go about doing it. I see that as just basic visual literacy.

The other is that it’s kinda of been part of my job. I’ve been designing Internet information systems since 1983, and that has included information architecture, data visualization, and (especially with the rise of the web) visual design. As such, I’ve gradually become attuned to the fact that layout and illustration do a whole lot more than just make a page look pretty; they control what information the user focuses on, what they perceive as important, and even how they react to that information.

In the early days, web developers and designers had to be jacks of all trades, and I was strong in technology, business strategy, and information design, but my weakest point has always been the creative side of visual design. Thus, the third factor: in 2001 I started classes at the New England School of Art and Design, with the idea of picking up a certificate in electronic graphic design. In 2005, due to extraordinary events in my life, I walked away from the program with just one class left to matriculate. But by then I’d gained all the knowledge I was going to get from the program.

Knowing I sucked at graphic design, that was an interesting and conscious exercise. When one is young, you always play to your strengths, looking for a job you will excel at; when you’re older, you start thinking more about new, more ambitious challenges and the value of exploring and strengthening the areas you’ve always found most difficult. When I started classes at NESAD, my work was actually well ahead of that of the kids in my classes, but over time, my work stayed at about the same level, while theirs improved dramatically. What I did gain was a better understanding of design and designers, and the incredible insights of the Bauhaus movement.

At the same time, it pretty much confirmed my lack of confidence in my creative ability. While I have expert skills providing critiques and making suggestions, and moderate skill at taking an existing design and improving it substantially, I’m an utter failure if I have to start with a blank page; the ideas just don’t come. So I didn’t overcome my weakness, but I definitely learned a lot, and refined my understanding of my limitations.

What’s ironic is that this lack of creative confidence has spread to my fiction writing, as well, which is one (of many) reasons why I decided to end my involvement with DargonZine. Fortunately, at least it hasn’t interfered with my blogging or photography, which have been my major “creative” outlets in recent years.

But really, I think my first two survey courses in graphic design were the most valuable in terms of gaining a degree of visual literacy. They taught me how to look at a piece of media and evaluate it from a designer’s perspective, and some of the techniques and methods used to influence the viewer, whether subtly or otherwise.

Up, date!

Jun. 30th, 2007 06:02 pm

Time for a quick general update. Things have been pretty good of late.

On the work front, I’m not at the client site anymore, which is really nice. Still working for that big lingerie retailer, which is mostly okay. The other day I learned what a tanga is. Sadly, not through a hands-on demonstration.

And I’ve changed roles on the project from business analyst to UI engineer, which is great; I like to balance my work experience between business, creative, and technical roles/tasks.

Got my first performance review last week. It was pretty glowing, which is gratifying, considering I was instrumental in pulling this project out of the hole it had dug itself. The few criticisms I received were mostly about how we as a team could have better handled a couple issues, rather than any individual shortcomings, which was also encouraging.

Being at the home office also means I can go down to the Haymarket to buy produce on Fridays, which has really surprised me. Last week was typical: I got 10 limes, 6 bananas, and a quart of strawbs for $4; the limes alone would have cost me $10 at the grocery store in my neighborhood! The savings at Haymarket is just ludicrulous, and I’ve been eating a whole lot more produce lately as a result.

The other thing I’ve done for work is recreate an improved version of the foosball ranking application that we used to run at my last job. It runs off the Elo ratings system that’s used in ranking chess players, so it has a bit of advanced maths to it, but it also lends a bit more credibility. I’m pretty happy with it, and so far it’s been pretty popular with the boys at work.

A week or two ago I got an email out of the blue from a nonprofit that wants to use one of my photos for a member mailing, and potentially have me do a multi-location photo shoot for their website. Paid! Granted, I’m not gonna charge much at all, both because they’re a nonprofit and I can use it to build up my portfolio. And it’s got me learning about how to price photos and effectively negotiate copyright rights. So that’s very cool, but it doesn’t deserve more press than that until it’s a done deal. It’d be sweet to be able to say I’m a paid photographer, in addition to being a paid writer and award-winning poet!

Bought new luggage, too. I liked my old red wheeled Kenneth Cole duffel, but the fabric had torn, so it needed to be replaced. It only survived the trip to Las Vegas thanks to copious last-minute application of Gorilla Tape. I couldn’t decide between the larger or the smaller Samsonite wheeled duffels, so dang, I bought ’em both, and still paid half of what one Tumi bag would have cost. And they’re a very pretty royal blue, which makes me happy.

Went to the dentist for… uh… the first time since I was laid off by Sapient. I have to go back in a couple weeks for xray results and a real exam, but the hygienist seemed to think things were actually very good. I’d been fearing much worse.

My assistant editor is preparing and sending out the next issue of DargonZine. It’s wonderful that I don’t have to, although he’s taking his time at it for someone who set a goal of getting nine issues out this year. Still, I don’t envy him; it’s not bad when you know the process, but it’d be quite involved for someone not familiar with how it’s done and the dozen or so technologies behind it.

There’s a mess of health and bike stuff to talk about, but it’s all going to go into [livejournal.com profile] ornoth_cycling, where it belongs.

Except for this one comment. By the end of this year’s PMC ride, I’ll have raised around $26-$29k for the Jimmy Fund. Thinking about that, it’s kind of staggering. That’s enough money to buy a pretty decent car, or pay $1200 per month in rent for two years. It just staggers me that my friends have been so incredibly generous. Then you think about the 5,000 other people who ride each year, who have similar fundraising stories, and you get an idea of how massive an impact the PMC has on the Dana-Farber’s ability to advance the state of cancer treatment and prevention.

That’s a great thing to be a part of, and a nice note to end on.

Day One

Nov. 6th, 2006 09:19 pm

This is just going to be a quickie to debrief from today’s first day of work at Optaros.

I think it’s going to be a lot like Sapient’s early days: a lot of learning and leadership, really exceptional people who earn my respect, the possibility of a future financial windfall, exceedingly busy, and another major WBL challenge. Oh, and that stipulation about travel? Don’t be surprised if I’m writing from Boise next week…

The net is that Optaros is probably where I want/need to be, career-wise. It’s good to be in my stretch zone for something I’m interested in, but at the same time, I will need to very actively manage my commitments. If “time is money”, then the instruction to “pay yourself first” implies that WBL should take precedence over job. I’m just going to have to be aggressive about putting that into practice. Very reminiscent of old-school Sape, except hopefully I’m not just older, but also wiser. On verra.

I know that’s a lot of caveats, but it’s also very exciting, which is also reminiscent of olde Sapient days. And I’m utterly stoked to sink my teeth into some of the Open Source/Ajax/Flex goodies that are out there. It’s been a long time since I’ve been this motivated by my work.

I have also confirmed that they’re not at Bus Innovation’s level of Foos aptitude, and nowhere near Endeca’s. There will be much pillaging and plundering.

Oh, and one more thing:

PLEASE GO VOTE!!!

So today I was laid off, along with 550 other people, in Sapient's third round of layoffs. Actually, I've been given the option of continuing to work for them for another month, so although I was laid off, I won't really be unemployed until the end of March.

I have a hard time really assimilating this information. I haven't been let go from a job in 15 years, and after seven years at Sapient, it's kind of hard to imagine not having the security and confidence and comfort that went with it. I guess I'm still somewhat in shock, although the layoffs weren't a surprise, and I'd been ready for it for some time. It's just going to be a radical change, and I'm really not so good at big changes... especially when it cuts to the core of my self-worth, as this does. Not, mind you, that I think my being laid off had to do with performance, but instead my being at Sapient really bolstered my self-image.

Practically, I should be fine. Although I've got a mortgage and the job market sucks right now, my severance will keep me going into August without having to tap my savings. Furthermore, I have a good deal of savings around, and none of that even includes unemployment insurance, either. So in that sense I'll be fine.

My biggest concern is when I re-enter the job market, how I'll sell myself. The problem there is that I've moved out of the technical realm, but haven't got enough experience to land a job on the creative side. So it's going to be a bit of a selling and positioning job when I finally do get a resume together. And, for the first time, a portfolio, as well!

Looking back at Sapient, it certainly was a great job. It taught me a lot, and was very financially rewarding, and I got to work with a huge number of really great people. And, of course, it helped me make the transition from systems and database programmer to site designer. The big downside was really the workload, but even that wasn't so bad much of the time.

But now it's all history, and I need to look forward. From here, I really don't know what the future will hold for me. About all I can say is that I will take some time and enjoy life through the summer. The job market is really bad, and I'll need to find something that I can do which will be in demand, but I can wait a little while for that. I'm just hoping that I can find something that keeps me on the edge of technology and creative, because that's really what I enjoy most. And hopefully my next step will give me as much security and growth as I experienced at Sapient.

But now it's time for a little break, and then a big change.

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